Thursday, December 06, 2007 @ 8:15 PM: Of all memories
I was really wondering...
How I wish everything had really happened for me...
How I wish I can accept the deviations from the reality...
How I wish I can forget about the sad and heartbreaking moments...
How I wish I can...
Time has really flown fast... Last year, I remembered taking a photo with ps and simin at the orchard road, right after our bday celebration for ps at the marche converted place at the Heerens.. and there one year later exactly, I was with ps (and the class) thinking of those times (how we squeezed in three ppl's head in the photo) and wondering how things have unfolded things in this entire year.
To say I've achieved much?
Sometimes I really think I still smack of immaturity from the way I think and neglect some other important stuff while playing too much. Haha... still quite insensitive and tends to forget some ppl couldn't take chocs/cheese/starch... and sometimes niao until too much... the tendency to get too indulged in some small petty fun and forgot the large picture... But sometimes u can't really change one's character (expect a less bubbly me at gatherings? no way lorhs), what one can do is to remind himself constantly that he has to be more sensitive and never gives up with oneself when mistakes and wrongdoings are committed.
Sometimes I am really childish and thought that things could be the same way as it is. But sadly as I've written in one of my songs, some things are like broken pieces of a vase, and it is impossible to treat it the same, as much as u wanted... Some things are just against ur wishes... and I am really helpless at this... But I guess I shan't complain here... And difficulties are present to make you really TREASURE what you have... I am always glad to have a bunch of great friends who can really make my day, a great MUM, a uberly talented and hardworking sister, a strict father, equally strict Mr Wong, friendly and understanding commanders in camp, tutees who really have a passion for learning and take the trouble to sms me for all the help given, patient teachers... and so many more that I can't possibly state (Only 5 mins to type liaos)... On this note, I shall persevere in my belief and continue what i'm doing even though obstacles are there... Yeah I can do it!
Sometimes my bridge play is still stagnant right there... those stupid mistakes occurring just makes one feel discouraged... and U KNOW that it is an elementary mistake... But I know that I'm making the effort, my p makes a lot of effort, and this effort won't be wasted...
Ultimately, life has to go on. One could not always stop looking forward, while the best one can do is to improve on oneself... I've been trying hard... And this insecurity feeling in life will always be present (as what my dear p stated)... it could not be overcome, but we can always use it to our advantage!
JIAYOU everyone!
thank you for bringing me memories...
