Monday, February 04, 2008 @ 10:16 PM: Motivation
Haha... today had a good chat with fellow pre-departure scholars at ICES and the forum team...
Well, both convos dwell on different stuff... one is how we are charting our future directions, the other is how we can manage to keep going in our fields despite juggling so many balls at the same time... haha... and i think the central point to both convos is passion and motivation...
I would be bluffing if I tell you that I have no complaints regarding the attachment, to be honest... Maybe it is sort of a character match, as echoed by the VJ friend (I'm really bad with names) and Amrik... One month into preparing solutions, using the machines, recording and manipulating the results and repeating the same whole sequences everyday all ALONE, I realised sometimes it can be to the breaking point...
Essentially I love to interact with ppl, understanding about lives, influencing people and helping others who are in need... and now it seems my mouth is sorta useless de... everyday at most say hi to those around u and everyone is so indulged in their own work, as though a slight disturbance will take them away from their final steps of the equation they are formulating (which i can say i really admire their spirit, and i think i appear like that too to the rest)... And that's where tiong soon's words come into play... about facebook being the place for those who are 'deprived' of social life (forgot his exact quote as well)... and i guess i have little time for that as well la, since i am under pressure to produce the relevant results in order to carry on... And sometimes it is scary to a certain extent... to see the PhDs and grad students mumbling incomprehensible words to their own... and of course, i'll start singing my own compositions to my own vials and beakers in my boredom (someone said that was scary too!)
But that doesn't mean I don't love research... It can be really fun when it's in a group, for one of the best times I had in JC was to be doing a project at DSI with huixuan and huiting... and it is still fun now cos I get to plan my own experiment, decide what to do next with consultation from the friendly mentors, and talk crap with fellow pre-departure scholars... and no job's perfect...
I shall give myself the next two months to decide... since I dun really understand my personality as well... but I know my direction ahead - and it was essentially same as Caleb, a MOE scholar... which is to be A Prof, doing research and at the same time educating the next generation!
thank you for bringing me memories...
