Friday, June 12, 2009 @ 1:14 AM: End of exams!
Here comes the end of exams, and as always the end of something marks the beginning of yet another...
While people would remember the days of mugging that they spend in the library, the competitiveness where my mates would love to check their answers and relish in their joy of getting them right, confidently saying a first is within their grip, while people may think that they might have done better in the exam, and the holiday mood is yet to sink in (just like me typing this sorta "obligatory" entry here?), and while some people are busy having fun, partying whole day having deserved this break, it is perhaps just interesting for me to recap how great these days have been...
In a sense, I thought that the exams was a good way to sort of bind us together... everyday we could be in the lecture theatre sitting, listening to those boring physics lectures and trying to keep awake, and once the time is up everybody would split their ways, esp for me since i'm so far away from the rest... and once back in college it seems like supervisions, CCAs, other activities would not allow us to find a common time to meet each other...
It was then that I really appreciated the study grp with cai na and jackie on thurs, when a more regular schedule of seeing my friends came... and soon after the holidays, the every 2 days study session really brought some of us together and it was quite a good atmosphere to help each other out for studies, and have a good break after our study sessions for pool or table soccer or simply a nice picnic at grantchester... i guess those are the days when i would not forget...
and soon the easter term started, it was a case of balancing new knowledge with revision, and thanks to my super speed my supervisors have gone thru plus my little motivation in chemistry, i really appreciated the extra space i had before the exams... during those period, i would say my email to my cells supervisor would remain the best joke among my supervision mates where i was totally shocked that the cells mock paper is on theory and not practical... and that frenatic 4 hrs is one of those most productive during the exam period...
it is this period that i've started to see people mugging off their socks, really dedicating every minute to mugging... for example helen told me she never worked so hard before, and she was really motivated to do well... or like hong kin who self-proclaimed as the "mugger who mugs like a dog"... everyone wanted to do well, and suddenly i realised everyone is so similar after all... if there were doubts that the locals would not study as hard, they were totally quashed during this period. ppl work really hard, day in day out at the library and as i would agree with the general sentiment, it was one of the most stressful days ever...
But somehow during my reflections, I found out that my intrinsic motivation had been the primary force that drove me forward, and i certainly hope it is enough to bring me the A* requirements. However there are too many uncertainties. Cells are essays-based and subject to markers' opinions, physics was not well done and stupid mistakes are made, chem and maths are generally okie, but i'm not really happy with my paper 2 which i felt i could have done better. But nevertheless, the most impt thing is to enjoy the process and not get stressed by it... and i thought i had met that... after all a healthy body is the most productive as i would always believe! And certainly, i hoped my hard work would reap fruits at the end of the day, though it would be certainly hard to replicate my sis's success.
It is also during this period that some things have been elucidated, and I was somehow happy that things have turned out this way. Some friendships have gone for the better and i knew some people more... while i got in touch with the other nat scis in my college more which was certainly a good thing!!
And yups! 4 Singaporean kids are coming to Homerton!!! And ironically my kid is not gonna be any two of the bridge players... well at least i get to take care of more kids! Homerton would have a greater Singaporean community next year! So looking forward to it! :-) And wenjia and i went to see our rooms for next year... and again we're gonna get attic rooms... but shld be bigger in terms of size!! and it is away from the bar too :-) and i would have two math-mos, one engineer and one physicist as my neighbours!
In other news, I would be going to Jurong Island yet again... Low Km with the particular island (it means high affinity if u dunno what it means)... and will be reunited with wenjie there! days of talking everything from politics to chemistry on the bus awaiting! and ling fan would be coming too... so sad we can't get csl after all...
thank you for bringing me memories...